When They Come Home and Leave Again

Written By Imperfectbalancebyjenn

As you know we are a military family. With Den’s 30 year ARMY career and now with 2:4 kids also being active duty ARMY. They don’t say “ARMY Strong, Family Strong” for nothing. But it is a different ball game when it is your kids.

I still will stand by my words of I’m so proud of them for serving. My support is unwavering. But as our oldest PCS’d from Oklahoma to their next duty station this week my gut was crushed. Crying a few days before he left and hiding it from everyone, to literally sobbing in the in the driveway as he drove away. Shoot I’m tearing up as I’m writing this.

Today is a new day! I had to step away from this blog and center myself a bit. Yes it started with a run, coffee and reflection, garden time and a pedicure. This helps me, staying busy, focusing on other things and not just what is going on in my brain with worry.

My faith is strong, but could be stronger in the form of letting go and letting HIM take over. This is out of my control, let HIM take the wheel. Having HIM guide me in a direction of peace. We have raised our kids the best way we know how and it is time to let go. What do they say “Let Go, and Let GOD” I choose trust over fear. Not because it's easy, but because it's necessary. The miles between us may be greater now, but the love, values, and faith that connect our family remain the same.

Being an ARMY Mom doesn't get easier with age or experience. If anything, the love grows deeper, and so does the worry. But I know this season is part of the journey. Our children were never meant to stay under our wings forever. They were meant to spread them.

So I'll keep praying, keep cheering them on from afar, and keep reminding myself that they are exactly where they are supposed to be. When the tears come, I'll let them. Because they are simply proof of a mother's love. For now, I'll tend the garden, enjoy my coffee, hug the pups, and trust that God is watching over our soldier when I can't. One day at a time, one prayer at a time, and one goodbye at a time.

Jenn

PS-He and our daughter-in-law made it safely :)

Imperfectbalancebyjenn

Hey, I’m Jenn, semi-retired military spouse, mom of four and a NYer turned OKie. After 30 years of moving and starting from scratch, my husband, soldier, Dennis and I decided Oklahoma was our last stop. We built our forever home, “The Roost” here in SW Oklahoma.

When I’m not out running, leather working, volunteering or with the chickens, yes, a new thing for me, I’m in the garden. I love to learn and experiment how to grow here in SW Oklahoma. My favorite part is to bring the garden to the table.

I’m so glad you guys are here! We can all learn, share and “Grow” together through this journey.

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